Rambling ...

Even when your children are grown up, as a mother you will always worry. Sometimes you worry, that something might happen, than you worry, when something happens, and you will worry what will happen in the future. Sometimes that's exhausting.

Worry paralyzes me. I can't do anything, or if I do something, I'm so restless doing it, that it's no fun at all. The last few weeks were like that for me, but now it's looking up. So I've been spinning a little. Some of my own dyed fiber, and I can tell you that I'm sick of orange right now.


During my restlessness, I've been casting on and ripping out. Yarn cakes were the result. Nothing was speaking to me. I DO have wonderful yarn, but it's not what I want right now. The top yarn cake is from Sockpixie, a sock yarn, merino/bamboo blend in lovely colores. I only wound it, did not even try to knit it. The middle yarn is Uru lace yarn, which I've got from Sabine. I LOVE the color, but knitting with real lace yarn is something I have to get used to. I started a lace scarf, ripped it out, and started another one. I've got about 7" of it. The bottom yarn is Wollmeise for the "Frattello" socks from Yarnissima. I started that one too, it was so very big, I had to rip it out, and have to think about it some more.

The truth is, I'm bored with what I've got on my needles. There's the crochet star blanket, made with mercerized cotton. There's the "Bliss" blanket, made with the same mercerized cotton, knit entrelac, and the colores are so intensive, I have to take a break after every few rectangles, or I would go nuts. I still like it all, but will be glad when I'm done with knitting with mercerized cotton.

Kirsten made me aware of my feelings towards my current projects. Did you see what lovely shawl she knit, when she got bored with hers? Sometimes projects just feel right, and sometimes they don't.

I want to knit a pair of socks. I saw them in the new Knitter's magazine, they are designed by Cat Bordhi. I think she's my favorite sock designer. I didn't get the magazine yet. Don't know why I can't find it anywhere. I sure hope it's not sold out yet. The socks are called "Spring Thaw" and I just love them!

So, the last two evenings, I've been looking through all my knitting magazines. There's at least one project in every issue of "Interweaeve Kits" and "Knitter's magazine" I have,which I would like to do, but I do have other knitting magazines as well, and there was nothing in THOSE I wanted to knit. I'll be more careful in the future in buying knitting magazines. And also, why do I keep buying more knitting books? I have so many, and there are so many projects in all of them, added to the ones in my magazines. It would keep me busy for years, and years, and still, there's always a new book, a new design, which I WANT, absolutely MUST HAVE! That's crazy. This madness has got to stop, but how? :o)

I didn't take as many pictures of the pups this summer. It's always the same. They enjoy their days. Biko's doing pretty well, chasing the tennis ball, and swimming in the pool. She's now reached the point, where it's time for a bubble bath. She stinks! Getting soaking wet every day, and not drying totally, makes for the famous wet dog/old rag stink. I've been waiting for a really hot, hot day, so she would dry faster.

Sam's goofy as always. He bumped his head against a wall, not once, but twice. He was so excited to go outside, that he's twirling, well that's the same every time we go outside. But now he's got a wound over his right eye. Nothing too bad. He's staying away from every water source, except where he goes to drink some. He's almost destroyed his red ball, we introduced a new ball, but so far, he's rather playing with the red, of course. He might get a bath today too, which will leave all of us wet, wet, wet. Well, I'll get to it then, to get it over with.