I didn't think I would post today, but since this is troubling me so much, I thought I'll get it off my chest. You may think what you like, of course that's how it's supposed to be anyway.
9/11 didn't affect me personally, I didn't loose somebody that day, but it still affects me more than I would have thought, because it brings to mind, all the bad what's happening on this earth. This sounds very melodramatic, maybe it is. Have you seen the movie "The Fifth Element"? In one scene Lilo is learning about this earth, going through it alphabetically. When she comes to "W" as in war, she breaks out in tears. Later she says something to the effect, that we on Earth use everything just to destroy what we built.
I stopped watching daily new, because it made me so sad, my heart ached every time they were on. I still get to know the major news, it's all around us, and of course we should know about it, but I think it's a bit much. How can we stand it to be bombarded with bad news every day and still go on, like nothing happened. We don't have to watch world news, to get bad and sad stories, it happens very locally as well.
I don't watch much TV, unless I'm down already, not a good combination! I think it was a week ago, maybe longer, when I saw this news about Thailand ( sorry, I try to forget, but this image is imprinted on my brain). There was a segment, where 7-8 year old girls had to fight each other, with boxing gloves on. They were crying, and still had to keep going. All around them were men cheering and laughing, and betting I'm sure. This is not about war between countries, but how people treat each other. This scene looked the same to me as when they had a cock fight, but this was way worse.
So, forgive me, this day of remembering 9/11 brings forth so much more bad, not just what happened that day, but is still happening every day.
This makes me angry, and tired, and thinking about how ridiculous it is to think about ordinary stuff, like knitting. I will not knit today, I'm too distressed. I'll try to do something different today, might not be useful to somebody else, but I need to get my peace back. I'll knit again tomorrow.